I am creating this because maybe writing my feelings down will help me to feel better.
Maybe someone else experiences the same feelings that I do.
Maybe I am not alone....
Also I am sitting here like a loser at home on a Saturday night, so what better time to start writing a blog! (loser)
I am a struggling human, I was going to write musician but that sounds too cliche and also I am not officially a musician yet eg. i have no ep's no lp's so that just makes me useless.
My goal is to be a producer or even sing in a band...but at the moment I seriously lack confidence to do anything like that. I am recording a band at the moment, but thats not too hard, and I cant do anything beyond that.
Geez...
trying to write I sense that I have really slipped on this ability I used to have. I used to be good at writing, typing whatever came to my head..now all that comes to my head is menial rubbish, My vocabulary has also disappeared. too many drugs and not enough books.
tomorrow i strive to read more books and take less drugs etc.
I have definitely stopped smoking as much weed. I had a smoke today and i was totally out of it,. it was my first smoke in a week. I didnt like it at all... i am going through one of my not smoking weed phases which is good and necessary for all. we all go through these things...
